9-27-2026

"When one is pretending, the entire body revolts" - Anaïs Nin

It is really interesting how drastic of a transformation an individual can have over a relatively short period of time. I don't feel very connected to my past a part from a few longstanding interests (these interests are keeping me sane whilst I go through this metamorphosis.) My entire worldview and personal philosophy started to shift during the pandemic, to be honest there was really nothing else to do besides stare at a wall and think too much. I am glad it did not take long for me to outgrow what I was conditioned to believe. Society attempts to condition women into viewing marriage and kids as the ultimate goal. My family attempted to condition me into becoming conservative. Marriage, kids, conservatism.. it is such a superficial dream. And at some point I began to realize it is not a good dream, but instead it is a nightmare and there is a paralysis entity watching you and you can't move.

note: engage in exposure therapy, be brave enough to live outside of the box.